I wanted to show up and be vulnerable, and so here is me being vulnerable. Gulp.
I worried about sending this because I didn’t want you to think I was lying to you or that I was a fraud.
The truth is, I haven’t been honest with you.
(I know what you’re thinking: beware the person who says, let me tell you something, honestly… but I AM telling the truth).
I’ve blacked out for the past two years…
While I encouraged you:
- To go after your passions
- To live life to the fullest
- To have fun and be yourself no matter what
- To light yourself on fire
I was NOT doing those things.
Don’t get me wrong, my life has changed exponentially since 2017.
I have the most amazing, loving, committed relationship.
I am supporting myself full time with my amazing healing business.
I am in love with myself and I’m proud of who I have become.
I am heading in the direction of my dreams.
BUT, I am also a hypocrite.
I like to refer to myself as a #LYT #Hypocrite since I’m a lover of wordsmithing and it takes the sting out of the reality that I haven’t been walking my walk.
Ready to hear how it all went down?
I stopped writing for my community (although that’s my number one passion and talent)
I behaved in ways I thought I SHOULD as a business woman (cue the doldrums)
I watered down my totally inappropriate sense of humour
I clamped down on my childlike enthusiasm and giddiness
Basically, I stripped almost all of my personality out of my presence, offers and interactions with you, my soul community.
I know this doesn’t get in the way of the power of transformations I offer my soulmate clients, but it does put up a wall of being Truly Me.
I wasn’t allowing myself to be fully authentic, so you would see me as an expert and not a female Peter Pan
I wasn’t allowing myself to be fully authentic, so you would see me as someone to rely on and be your rock
I wasn’t allowing myself to be fully authentic, so I would be taken seriously and fit in
Hello People Pleaser alert!
After a big knock on the forehead from the Universe and some intensive sessions with my own healers and mentors, I AM NOW ON FIRE.
We all need these wakey, wakey moments and this one was a welcome breath of fresh air.
I am so excited to invite you to be part of my NEWLY LYT Party!